Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they’re tumbling down, and they didn’t even put up a fight.
They didn’t even make a sound.
I found a way to let you in, but, I never really had a doubt. Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now.
You what an odd feeling is? Needing someone. I don’t mean like needing someone for money or for something to do when you’re bored. I mean really needing them, to the point where you get twisted inside just thinking about them being hurt or unhappy. Not only is it an odd feeling, it’s a scary one. Overwhelming at times as well. We both know by now we need each other but I don’t know to what extent. Or at least, on your side I don’t know the extent. I know for a fact you stick around in my head every time you’re gone or we don’t talk. Ugh, that makes me sound clingy… Let me rephrase that, when you’re gone, I miss you to hell and back but it doesn’t stop my life because I know you’re out living yours.
Being with you is a difficult task if you ask me, sometimes you’re wishy-washy, sometimes you’re happy, and sometimes you’re crying for a reason you won’t disclose to me. But I want you to know something, through all your doubt about me, or our relationship or even your life I’m there for you. I’ll be the glue that sticks back together all your broken pieces, and I know over time you’ve grown to have a lot of them. If love was easy, everyone would have it. The whole thing about love is it’s delicate and people mistreat it. They bend and break it and never bother to try and fix it. WIth us, it’s different. I don’t want to be that couple that shoulda, woulda, coulda. That’s not my style.
Even though sometimes you push me away just as much as I push you away, we’re like rubber bands babe, we snap right back into place. Time is a funny thing, it can be your best friend or your worst enemy. The same goes for distant. I never want to be that girl who demands your life revolve around me because that’s not who I am. I rather stand back and watch you shine than force you to sit back in the dark with me. I want to be the one you turn to when things get hard, the one you know will make everything feel better even when you’re at your breaking point.
Know what’s really funny? How much you make me feel all at once. It’s like you know what switch to flip to make me happy, or sad or even angry which sometimes you do a lot. But its also a scary feeling, knowing someone can have such a massive effect on your emotions like that. Knowing it could all change in a split second, that’s a scary thing baby, but I’m willing to do it all for you. That’s another thing I’ve noticed, even though I’m loud and outspoken and well, a bitch you’ve broken away that shell I’ve always had but kind of hid. You know the coy side of me, yes I have one surprisingly. But not anymore.
If you haven’t noticed this yet, I think, a lot and sometimes it’s bad for me because I always end up putting myself in a bad mood. I think was Thursday, the day we didn’t talk all day until like, maybe ten or eleven. I talked to Chloe all day and Katie and a lot of other people but I found myself always moving back to you and what you were doing. I was curious as to how your meeting went. I found myself wondering if you were thinking about me. Then I realized I didn’t have to wonder anymore because I knew. I knew you probably missed me just as much as I missed you.
Love is a funny thing, and your love is even more weird. It changed me, a lot of me. I wouldn’t say it completely tamed me, but I see things in a different light now. I see things brighter, more clearly. And I thank you for that, because you may not notice it, but you’re the reason I smile even when inside I feel like breaking. You’ve become a reason to be strong, to be better. You’ve become more important than you realize. And I love you for that. Even though I resented you for telling me if I wasn’t nicer you’d leave me I guess you made me realize if I didn’t change a little and let you in, I’d lose an amazing man which is something I never wanted to do. You inspire me and shape me into something better and I just hope I can do the same for you, love bug. Now here are some quotes to make this even longer ~
"Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to look
at someone and smile for no reason."
"I love you to the moon and back."
Make a wish for the new year! <3Done and done. Last two came true, never not reblog.
I really want 2014 to be a good year for me
today i realized how much i love anubis like he just
this sarcophagus contains all the fucks i give. also your beating heart
talk to the hand cuz the face aint talkin
say that to my face horus you falcon headed fuck
calm down ladies
LOOK @ ME WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU YOUNG MAN